Manado, I am Coming...!

I wrote this note on the plane...

This is the second time I visit Manado, and the third time I fly traverse the sky of Sulawesi Island.... I always enchanted by the beauty of Sulawesi Island's nature from up here.. Really, Sulawesi island looks very green with its deep forest which is sweep away from south to north, and its rivers like a long snake, serpentine and look like a beautiful painting from the window of the plane.
In my first visit to North Sulawesi , I sat near window and looking around, to see everything I can see behind the clouds. That time, the sky was so clear that I can see all those beauty so clearly. North Sulawesi full of coconut trees which are so thin and very high, I think, the heights are over 10 meters and they are look very beautiful. Praise Allah, He creates all these beauty.

There is the time when the plane flies above the clouds just like now. And when you are in this situation, you feel like you are nowhere. All you can see is just white... white.. and white...   

When the clouds are gone with the wind, you can see the blue sky. Blue, blue, blue... and only blue. Sometimes the clouds will crash your plane and the plane shaking. 

Sometimes, to be on the plane makes you excited, but sometimes you feel bored. But to be on the plane makes me remember about mortality. That's true.
Especially when the plane just took off. When the plane slowly turn on the machine and then run so fast just before it takes off. That's the time when I feel that I am nothing. I am just human who is so helpless. If Allah will make this plane fall down right now, then "the end", this is the last second of my life on the earth. I can be unrecognized. 
Usually, if the time to take off has come, when the flight attendance announce us to fasten our seat belts, my mouth can't stop praying...
"Bismillahi tawakkaltu 'alallah... La Haula waa kuwwata illa billah hil 'aliyyil adziimmm..
Hasbunallah wa ni'mal wakiil.. ni'mal maula wa ni'man nassiir...."
Ya Allah, I am nothing without you, I am helpless without you. Verily, if now is the time for me to die, I am pleasure... because my heart is now in the deep devotion to You and Your Messenger SAW. And if You willing me to taste your "hell" for all my sin I've done in the past... and then that will be my pleasure too,,,because there are so many things I regret in my life and I want to fix that all, too....
But if You want to give me a long life, I want to use it to remember You along my life....