How I Stop Fangirling

*I am sorry for my bad english :-P
I almost forgot that I have blog. Back then, I think it was 2 years ago, I made this blog. No exact reason, just want to share something with "something" not "anyone", because I don't expect people will read this blog anyway :D
I was crazy for this Korean idol named Kim Junsu back then, for almost 3 years (you can say, only 3 years, because many of them who love this guy, were loving him for at least 6-7 years (WOW) ). So, the name of this blog was come from his stage name, XIAH. So clumsy.
Sometimes I think that I was so... what it is called... yeah, just kind of fool. Some people always tease me because of my craziness towards this Korean guy. Yeah, I was loving him so much that time, I don't know why I was being like that. But now, I stop that crazy behavior, ha ha... for some rational reason.
Do you know about Habits?yeah, Habits. You can love someone because of habits, and you can stop loving them because of Habits too. Do you believe that? You have to.
I don't know will it work for "loving" someone who is very special to you like your husband or wife, what I mean here is "loving" or "fangirling over" idol. Yeah, we can make it narrow, fangirling over  Korean Singer. Why Korean Singer? how about Korean Actor?You will find there are many differences in fangirling over Korean Actors with Korean Singer. Which one is crazier?
I can say, It's Korean Singer. I think there is a special reason why Korean Singer drives you crazy more than Korean Actor. You will crazy for Korean Actor for one season only, the season when his drama airs on your TV station. Say it, you are crazy over Jang Geun Seok when his drama "He's Beautiful" airs on your TV. When the drama comes to an end, and then TV station will air "City Hunter" where Lee Min Ho acts as the main cast, you will easily fall for Lee Min Ho instead. Isn't that right?
But when you love Korean Singer or Boy band, you can feel the different. They just like poison to your brain, or we can say it, a drug, addiction drug. You can't stop easily. They produce CD and DVD every month, makes you crazy to buy all of them, because of it's photo book and originality. You can listen to their music everyday, every time, from your Ipod, computer, laptop, etc..you can't stand one day without their voices in your ears... while drama?you can't listen to drama, you have to watch :D
ah.. one thing you can't just let go, their Concert! they will go to your country, and you will think, it can be his first and last concert here, so I have to attend it! How much it cost! (naaaahhhhhh!!!)
is it clear for you?so, for you who still on the "right track", please be careful with your step to love Korean.. I really mean it.
Since January, in 2012, I told my self to stop fangirling over Korean, yeah, stop fangirling over that Kim Junsu. Why? really, for real, you lost everything when you decide to go on this fan girl thing.

1. You lost your quality time with friends (because you love to stay alone in your room to watch their videos than chatting with friends or somebody else), 
2. you lost much money!(It is difficult to you to stop yourself buying every album they made, I really mean it, not just me, but every friend I know, are they jobless or have many money, will try their best to buy the album. I can stand to not eating but not to not buying album!la la , I have to noted here, that the album is not cheap at all!)
3. Money again....., you know concert? haha... stupid question,,, yeah, concert. When you heard that "Hey...He will have his first Asia Concert in our country!!!" "Haaahhh???reallyyyy???When is it???" "This June!" "God, how much is the ticket?I HAVE TO BUY THE VIP ROW!!!!!" *dang* (how can you just sit in the back row while your most lovable person will stand in front of you, singing???-this is a voice of the devil-)
4. I think there are many other reasons. You choose to watch videos than study and all.. yeah, It will destroy our youth mind... 

that's why, I decide to stop. Yeah I stop. Nah... Now we talk about habits. This is my habits when I still fan girl -ing over Kim Junsu:

• at least 25% of my salary I spent to buy album every month, sometimes more than that.
• at least 40% of my time, everyday, I spent to watch videos, listen to his music and read every article about him. I know, every single change happens to him, his hair color, his hairstyle, his activity, his cloth, his car and everything! (think, does it matter?)

 It looks like, hey you only have two habits, why did you make yourself difficult? but that two "bad" habits destroy my mind and slowly push me to bankruptcy. I lost my identity as a Muslim Women! That's the point!
so, I build my new habits:

• at least 25% of my salary I spent to buy books! (especially islamic book and motivation books)

• at least 40% of my time I used to read books, worship and writing. (why writing?I don't know, just make an activity that is more useful than watching videos)

So, I can say that, I replace videos with books, watching and listening with reading.
Now, I am free from that fan girl thing :)
and I begin to be a book freak, not in a bad matter, but in a good matter, because I have a lot of knowledge, and I find myself as a better person more than ever. I don't know why, even if it just my point of view, or my feeling, at least I feel like "the addict" person who was free from her addiction.
My plan is, I will start to write about my experience in this blog, rather than about my craziness towards Korean guy :)